It’s been a while since I last wrote in this blog. Lots have happened since then. I’ve gone back to Taiwan and visited mom, I’ve put in my 2 week’s notice for my job, Leo and I got our wedding bands and he insisted on wearing it, we’re gonig to Vegas next week to get married, and San Francisco for our honeymoon. Whew! That was a busy, emotional and life changing month.
Now I no longer need to struggle out of bed to go to a job that is depressing and unrewarding. I am giving up a good income and stepping into a life that has no financial assurance from a steady income. But I am excited and I am happy and I can’t wait to start a new life that gives the control back into my hands instead of living a life according to other’s timeline and priorities.
It will take some time to let that sink into my consciousness. I still have the urge to check my email to see if there is any urgent problem that needs my attention. The fear that if I don’t check in I will be the end of the finger pointnig and labeled an unsatisfactory worker is still ingrained in my subconsciousness. That invisible seize and stress is still so ingrained in my mind and hard to break. It’ll take some time.
Life is changing and still coming at me with full force though. Need to dejunk the house, sell it and move to the condo. Car needs maintenance. Pets need shots. Yard needs to have the fallen tree removed. Plus now the arrangements for the condo matters will falll somewhat on my shoulder since I don’t have a ‘job’ any more. Life is never easy….