Well, after I woke up this morning and finally gained some sense of consciousness, I remembered this is one of the birthdays. I feel better about the day just having the thought of it. We all like to feel special in some way and birthdays certainly put you there in a hurry. Just like the wedding day for the bride, she gets to be the pincess for a day and everybody’s attention is on her and everybody brings good tidings and get dressed up just for her day.
Now if we can feel just as special everyday instead of just one day a year or a few times in our lives. And why not? Do we like to put ourselves down normally and only feel justified to feel special on our birthdays? We obvoiusly don’t need to. But it does help when someone close to you makes you feel special all the time. After listening to Irina’s torment about her relationship and the tears in her voice, I felt so lucky to have someone in my life now that adds to it with positives instead of negatives. I know just exactly how she feels because I have been there. And it is just like living in hell when you live with someone being very critical of you. The origin is most likely not the victim but the aggressor. There is something in their lives that are making them unhappy and they take it out on the one that’s closest to them. It’s the greatest sin I think we can commit in our lives — to create a hell for the ones that’s closest to us.
So here I am in this stage of my life where I constatnly am thankful for the person in my life that only enhances the positives and my life is so much happier and easier. I am the happiest right now thanks to him. I wish every woman finds someone like him in her life.
I am encouraged to pursue the things that I like to do. So I’m buried under knitting projects, playing with the latest gadgets, learning more about technology and making plans for the next thing that expands my creativity and imagination. And also I can extend myself to others that need some help and bring some sunshine into their lives. I found that the kind acts make me happy and they agree with something deep inside as if it is something I am called to do. Strange, sometimes it takes an outsider to bring the comfort a close one cannot provide no matter how great the actions and intentions they are. Maybe we have this built in emotions that turn off the appreciation for the kindness our family shows us but appreciate what an outsider brings. Or do we have higher expectations for our family members. Or as family members they tend to be more harsh in their approach for a good intention and have less patience. I don’t know the answer or maybe it’s all of those speculations. Maybe that’s the lesson we are all given to learn as the recipient or as the giver.
I am extending all the good wishes to Connie and I am also thinking of mom and all my family. I am encircling the light of healing and protection around every one of them. I wish every one of them well each and every day so they all live in grace.