Cousin called and said mom is back in the hospital. He was going out of town so it was a few days of agonizing over what’s happening. He called this morning and said she is stable and they are transferring her out of ICU. It is a relief and yet it’s not.
Talked to the neighbor yesterday, we shared a bottle of Parduchi. And she said, for some people it seems that it takes a while for them to process their lives before they pass away like her mom. Her mom was in a semi-awake state for a while too, and she said her mom was mentioning names of the dead relatives and once she was making pie. So could it be that we have to re-live our lives in that state before we can pass on? Is it what people describes as the out-of-body experience? No one knows. But it is something for the living to ponder.
So maybe mom is doing the processing now. As long as she is out of it while she does that, I would feel more at peace. The nurses like to shake and wake her to see if she is arousable which disturbs her process probably if that’s the case. I hope she can process it fast and move on and out of the failing and suffering body. Is it bad for me to think that?