It took us 3 weeks to drive to palo alto and back. Not all of it was driving though. We spent a few days in Las Vegus, a few in Sedona, a few in Phoenix, one in Taos and Elko, St Louis. I almost feel as comfortable on the road as I am at home after so many months of traveling and staying at the hotels. But it’s still good to come home and stay for a while.
Mom still pops into my head often. Although I haven’t been diligent in saying the prayers for her, my heart is still aching for her and think of her often. Today, I organized the pictures on my Acer and looked at the funeral pictures which brought some sadness on. Don’t know how long will it take for me to process the emotions. I’m cerntainly avoiding it and taking my time.
The house is kind of messy. I’ve already spent a couple of days trying to put some order into the chaos. Some is in better shape, the pantry tho is still on the waiting list. Leo’s sister has inspired me to be more organized and to pair things down. But it seems that I am only organizing and not discarding much yet. It’s another form of letting go. Stuff creates garbabe in the psyche. Let go of them to create a beginnig for lighter more spiritual space. But it’s hard.