Can’t say that I am fully accepting this condition. There is still hope that the bas bubble will help getting the clot away from the center so I can see straight and be able to function more like normal even with a blind spot. But that spot has not moved since it happened and the surgery hasn’t done much to change it.
Dealing with the post op requirements is the hardest. Especially when I lay down to sleep. I’m required to sleep on the left side but I am not a side sleeper. The ear will hurt and wake me up. I am trying as many options as I can to accommodate it. Currently, a travel pillow is the only one I can move around so the ear is not resting on anything. But it’s so low I ended up with a sore shoulder and arm when I woke up.
With all that, I am still grateful that it’s only affecting a small portion of my eye and all things considered, I am lucky to be able to walk, move, hear, taste, feel, talk…. I am not saying this is a small thing, cause it does affect me in a big way. But I am thankful that most of me is still intact. And this saying, is jumping out at me. Yes, I have a lot of conflicts in me still. And to ask to heal means that I have to settle the conflicts and move on. Don’t be lazy. Work on yourself so you can move on.