Author Archives: Christine

Can we live a life of contemplation?  Can we contemplate when we are laughing or does it require total silence?  Either way, will we make time to contemplate every day or do we just go through life as it happens without a thought?

Lunch at O’Charlie’s after we picked up my prescription sun glasses.  Salmon was amazingly good Cooked just right.

I was thinking about devotion for the Chinese words.  But the translation came out with reverent.  It is ok, I guess.

Benny is walking a bit better.  The second pain med has killed his appetite I think and make him groggy.  I have to bribe him with some leftover steak bits.  Knitting a flat piece with handles to see if I can help lift his weight a bit to ease on his legs.  He is a senior dog and he is getting the senior treatment now.  As long as he feels semi normal I guess that’s all we can ask for.

A day of stress yesterday.  Benny went to the vet late afternoon.  He was limping very badly and I was stressed out thinking the worst.  We didn’t want him to go through any more surgery at his age so any new injury immediately took me to the darkest thought.

However the vet informed us it is common among older dogs and gave him one more pain med to see how he copes with it for a couple of weeks.

I am grateful for having him around still.  Although it still hurts to see him limping around having difficulty walking.  He does seem to adapt to the pain better today.  Always be grateful.

When we tell ourselves to be ourselves, create our own destiny, detach, be in the now, we are getting ourselves to be prepared for what life brings to us.

Benny hurt his back right leg yesterday and has been limping badly since.  Every time he has a physical ailment now, it scares me and takes me to a dark place.  He is almost 15, he has all kinds of aches and pains and joint problem, breathing problem…  But he has pulled through them, although a little worse every time.

When you have pets, this is the time you dread to face.  And therefore, I have long decided he and Tido are the last two pets I’ll have.  I can’t and don’t want to go through these emotional rollercoaster any more.  The joy they bring never outweighs the sorrow in the end.

This is the direct translation from Chinese I imagine.  It means ‘detachment’.  I probably should change it to ‘detachment is the fasting of the mind’.

Sunday again.  Time passes so fast these days.  I almost want to say you have to ‘hustle’ if you want to make every day count.  Otherwise, time just slips through your breath and the day is done.

Eleanor Roosevelt was a very smart woman.  She had self confidence at a time when women were not taken seriously or regarded important.  Yet, she has the wisdom to know this about herself.

Just got “Love, Service, Devotion and the ultimate surrender” by Ram Dass and listening to it.  Looking forward to be inspired.

A follow up theme from yesterday.  I was watching the recent video of Jennifer Ross’s Prettyneatliving where she talks about her choosing to become a vegetarian today.  In it, she was very concerned about how people would react to her choice and stated that she has a hard time telling her family members about her decision.  At first, I thought why did she worry so much about what people think or say.  Then as she explained, I found myself to agree with her that it is easier to talk to a camera when you try to share something difficult than face to face with someone whose opinion you value a lot.  Your reasoning and logic gives way to how your listener feels about what you say and how they are taking it.  This comes back to the practice of ‘being yourself’ which i am also a student of.  I do care a lot about what people think of me, how I am fairing up with others, whether others like me or what I make or produce.  In the end, the joy of creating is taken away by the fear of disapproval.  I am looking at how many likes I get for my post instead of letting it go and let people take it or leave it. Hopefully, it benefits someone in a certain situation reading something positive or encouraging or looking at some beautiful picture to take their minds off of whatever is bothering them.  I may not get instant gratification but I will never know if it helps someone down the road.  I just need to keep creating and fulfill the inspiration that is within me.

I made this one up but I’m sure it has already been thought up by others.  It is positive and self assuring that is worth repeating to ourselves every day. Most times, we let others decide what we should do, how we should look and how we should behave.  The sooner we get out of that mentality, the sooner we can become ourselves and achieve the most we are destined to do.

Let go of guilt and be ourselves.  Stay positive, be kind.

This is a cliche word.  But it is something that I want to write.  It’s something we have to hold on to when life situations come at us in an unfavorable way.  But it is a feeble word compared to trust or faith.  Hope indicates doubt.  Trust leaves no room for doubt.  Faith goes a level up and does not even need trust for someone else.  Faith is within us.  It looks inside to something that is always there under any circumstance.

Shopping day today.  We went to the Chinese grocery Cam to get some staples stocked, then Miles for great and fresh vegetables and fruits for Leo.  Stopped at Fun Buffet for lunch.  And amazingly I am not sleepy and tired yet.  It’s a good thing.  I can upload to instagram and write here in my blog.  Made this word yesterday.  I like having something ready to upload the day before so I can take my time working on the next word or quote.  I have been uploading one quote or word a day now for over 2 weeks.  It has become a routine that I follow.  One that I want to keep too.